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  • Lucky Go Happy

    Lucky Go Happy

    This new shop was a perfect find for me, clueless in most aspects of ethical and eco-friendly products but for sure starting to be a bit more aware of what I gave/dressed Phoebe in.

    Discovering Jaime and Lucky Go Happy was fantastic and eye opening. It was also perfectly Timed.

    Lucky Go Happy

    I had recently been worrying about how gross children’s toothpastes were. I never realised how much crap I was allowing my child to put into her mouth, all in the name of clean teeth.

    Jaime at Lucky Go Happy had a range of organic, natural, fluoride free, colour/sugar free toothpastes that come in a wide range of fruit flavours.

    Not only was Phoebe now brushing her teeth with something less harmful but she has become obsessed with the toothpaste because it smells and tastes rather yummy. A child that wants to brush her teeth. A winner to me.

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    Why Lucky Go Happy was created

    I spoke to Jaime, a mum of two in Newquay about her new shop which was launched in April.

    She told me that when she moved from Essex to Newquay there was distinct lack of children’s clothes shops.

    Whilst at home she had also taken an interest and recently been trying to eradicate all products with chemicals and investing in more natural products, she saw a gap in the market.

    Lucky Go Happy was created so that people/parents looking to source clothes, body products for both them and children and gifts that were eco-friendly, ethical, organic could find them all under one “roof”.

    Brands such as Organic Zoo, Lennie & Co, Carlijnq, Jack n’ Jill and many more.

    My eyes have been opened

    Since discovering Lucky Go Happy, not only have I been super happy and impressed with the quality of the products that I have received but I have started making small changes.

    Baby steps mind you,

    If you are looking to invest in some environmentally friendly products for your child and a few for you, then I cannot recommend enough a visit to her online store.

    Be warned you will never look at toothpaste in the same way again.



    Jaime’s shop is and she is also on Instagram as the same name.

  • Youtube Ban

    Youtube Ban

    Many an early morning I have relied on Youtube or Youtube for kids giving me an extra thirty minutes of peace. I have been able to shower and shave whilst my child entertains herself with my phone. It has indeed spared many a moments of me going insane whilst trying to multitask life and a toddler. And I was thankful.

    However, I then started to witness her spending twenty minutes jaw opened watching a child open 150 Shopkins toys. 150!! Why any company believes it is healthy for a small child to be showered with such a ridiculous quantity of toys was just mind blowing.

    How a parent could then film their child opening them was to be honest horrific. My small, precious sponge of a child was absorbing this into her teeny brain.

    Youtube Ban

    Bloody Eggs

    Eggs. How and why did that turn into a thing?

    Let me tell you about eggs. I hate them, they make my blood boil.

    2017 and forget about working on world peace, let’s watch eggs being opened. Let’s watch Asian people saying ‘Open Open SUPRISE’ on repeat. Let’s sit and let our neurons slide out of our eyeballs as children are filmed opening chocolate/plastic eggs.

    The worst part is children love and are obsessed with these Youtube videos.

    I remember the first time Phoebe saw a real “egg’ in a shop and her head almost combusted.

    EGGS!!!!! what are you teaching our children. I tell you what you are doing, You are stunting tiny minds. You are making parents feel stabby all over the world.

    I almost cancelled Easter in our house because of Youtube and their eggs.

    Youtube Ban

    Really. I mean Really!!

    I had to make it stop.

    The thing is, people are making Youtube clips turning innocent shows into aggressive, demeaning, offensive and often violent videos and we have no control over stopping them if we give free reign of our phones/tablets.

    I loved being able to cut her nails in peace, I could cry trying to iron with a toddler trying to help and waking up and having to chat whilst you are still in sleep mode is for sure hard work.

    But I feel million times better knowing she is not being subjected to zombie shows and influenced by greed. That she won’t get angry because she wants to watch more of  Chase and Skye having a bath in chocolate whilst an annoying American woman spurts word vomit.

    That though Groundhog Day it can sometimes feel, that time really is fast and the years are short and that maybe stories at 6.30am and old episodes of Meg and Mog won’t kill you.

    So Bye Youtube, I hope the trend of Eggs, Paw Patrol pissing on each other and 1095 play dough videos fades away quickly.

    Do not even get me started on playdough videos…

    Youtube Ban



  • Letters To Loved


    letter to loved


    I love to write, I love letters. I even try and set up pen pals through Instagram.

    I still have all my letters that I got from pen pals as a teen, letters discussing tears, pot noodles and dorm room frolics from my friends at university.

    Kept in a box with the scent of Snake Bite Black and first kisses. Those memories will remain for as long as I can keep them.

    Long live the pen and ink, May your words be forever posted through the slits of homes and opened by fingertips. I mean swiping beautiful words from friends/loved ones is just not the same is it.

    So when the fabulous mama and fellow letter lover Charlotte Peach created Letters To Loved my sentimental and quite retro heart jumped for joy.

    Total bonus that she is also a seriously badass illustrator too.

    I had a chat with Charlotte and she told me all about Letters To Loved and why she created it. She also kindly sent me some of her stationery and it is pretty exquisite in a totally going to use it and save it for my grandchildren kind of way.

    She also sent a picture she created of my first meeting with Phoebe (See a few images below). Did not shed a tear, nope. Not even a bit (totally blubbed)

    Part of Letters To Loved is contributions from other parents who write letters to their loved ones. I sent one too –  it felt quite emotional writing it and raw but somewhat therapeutic too.

    I mean, I share a gazillion words on social media about parenthood, writing a letter directly to the little lady in my life just felt so right.

    But first read about this wonderful lady and her brilliant idea.

    letters to loved

    Charlotte Peach – Letters To Loved

    Why I started Letters To Loved

    Letters To Loved started as a collection of letters to my daughter. When she was a baby I had all these things I wanted to say to her, things I kept making mental notes of to remember to tell her or teach her, things I wanted to make sure that she knew, and as remembering things was not one of my fortes as a sleep deprived first-time mum, I decided to write as much of it down as I could remember. I found it cathartic. It helped relieve a lot of horrible anxiety I had as a new mum, as well as being a good way to capture the intense feelings I had for her. Feelings I didnt want to forget and wanted her to know that I felt.

    It also lead me to read other people’s letters, throughout history through to modern day. I wanted to start a collection where they were all in one place and see if it inspired other people to enjoy writing letters to their children as much as it did me.

    letters to loved
    The Style

    I have a ‘thing’ for good stationery – I think it replaced my ‘thing’ with shoes! But I think some letter writing stationery, although incredibly beautiful, can make everything feel a bit formal and stuffy. So you end up with lots of stunning things to write with, great for when you want to rsvp to the queen, but until then are tucked away in a drawer somewhere. I wanted the Letters To Loved stationery to feel great in terms of quality and design, but also styled in a way that you want to pick it up and use it right away. And if you make mistakes so what? I’ve worked with Laxmi Hussain on a lot of the branding for the company and the collaborative process has been great.
    In terms of the artwork I produce, that’s another way of capturing memories and feelings in a similar way to a letter. Many of the styles are about stripping back the noise around images we have of loved ones so that all you see is the beauty in the simplicity of that moment. Simple lines with very little detail around them, helps you see the connections between for example a parent and child, the simple way someone is held and I think it helps you reconnect with how you felt in that moment.
    For example the picture of my daughter and I came from a photograph taken in the hospital shortly after she was born. The photo is quite clinical and grey, with a Sainsbury’s bag full of snacks in the background. With all that filtered out all you see is the line of my arm around my tiny little bundle that I can’t stop looking at – a moment of calm and pure love with my daughter.

    What’s coming next

    I’d love to keep Letters To Loved 2017 going throughout the year. Each month I’m collaborating with illustrators and designers to create themed, limited edition luxury letter writing sets. The designs of each theme will reflect a new motivation for sending the letter and all profits from these editions will go to a different charity

    I’m also going to introduce lots of new products too, as well as more exciting collaborations with different artists and small brands


    My Letter To My Loved

    letters to loved


    To my Phoebe Cecily Violet

    A million words I could say to you.
    The beat to my heart.
    I hope you know this is all about you.
    I didn’t think we were meant to be.
    You proved me wrong.
    I didn’t think I needed you.
    You showed me I did.
    I thought I was okay before you.
    You made me realise I wasn’t.
    I was never very good at patience.
    Now I am bordering on being a saint.
    I didn’t know a child could make you feel like that.
    You make me feel everything.
    I didn’t know happiness felt like this.
    Now it is all I know.
    I thought I was always going to be alone.
    Now I will always have you.

    Thank you for picking me PC
    I am yours today, tomorrow and forever.
    Mama A x


    Head over to the Letters To Loved website for a peruse and also her instagram.

    So many pretty words and pictures. The stationery is pretty phenomenal too.


About Me

A little bit of me

About this blog

Why I am doing it

I thought long and hard about starting a blog. Knowing that there are some fabulous reads out there I wondered whether I should jump aboard the written ship. Then I thought about my role or my position as a single mother and how my experience may benefit to be heard. So, I am Alex a 34 year old single mother. I did not choose this role but I am in it and winging it one typo at a time. I will share, I may even scare but I hope that my words will bring comfort, solace and maybe even some inspiration and amusement to those that read it. “If evolution really works, how come mothers only have two hands?” - Milton Berle

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What I listen to

I live and breathe music as though it runs through my veins. Music has always been a passion and for three years was a job. I will often make reference to it in this blog. My tastes are eclectic and read like a David Lynch script but my mind is the same so it fits. A few of my Faves. Pearl Jam, The Sonics, Louis Prima, The Pixies, The Dwarves, The Damned, NIN, Faith No More, Connie Francis, Wanda Jackson, Counting Crows, Chuck Berry, Fats Domino, Nina Simone, Metallica, Foo Fighters, RHCP, Sonic Youth, Pantera, Portishead, Frank Sinatra, David Bowie, The Who, Pink Floyd, Chet Baker, Howlin Wolf, Rage Against The Machine, Type O Negative, Nirvana, Mother Love Bone, Petula Clark, Silverchair, Soundgarden, The Cramps, Misfits, New York Dolls, Buddy Holly, ELO, Carl Perkins and Elvis Presley. To name but a few.


Some of my faves

I love movies, I immerse myself in them, escape momentarily. Asking me to choose my favourites is a little Sophie's Choice. Here are some of my loves. Amelie, Leon, The Crow, The Lost Boys, Girl Interupted, Virgin Suicides, The Craft, Empire Records, True Romance, Face Off, Heathers, Beetlejuice, Pans Labryinth, Ferris Buellers Day Off, Labryinth, The Rocky Horror Show, Legend, Wayne's World, The Big Lebowski, Withnail And I, Ghost World, Poltergeist, The Birds, The Shining, O Brother Where Art Thou, Fried Green Tomatoes At Whistle Stop Cafe, City Of God, Clueless, My Girl, All the Die Hards, Juno, Rosemarys Baby, Harold And Maude, Chocolate and Elf. Now excuse me whilst I go and weep at my forgotten loves.


Glorious Food

Another passion of mine. Those who say nothing tastes as good as skinny feels, never really ate. I spent most of my youth eating to live and then my adulthood living to eat. I love to bake and am a total an utter feeder. I make things for other people, often things I do not like. Something beautifully perverse about watching people enjoy your creations. I will add some of my offerings onto this blog. Sharing is caring. Though I am not liable for any weight gain.


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